in honor of the patriots game that aired today, my mom decided that we should go to are town sandwich shop for brunch(weird i know). i was set on not getting anything.... i didnt order anything but a drink.my mom on the other hand ordered a sub FILLED with a bunch of shit and then got onion rings and a coke. i told her i couldnt eat because i didnt know if the bread was vegan. after that she told me that i couldnt be vegan because i was going to starve myself to death. THAT'S THE FUCKING POINT MOTHER!!!! of course i didnt say that but i soooooo wanted to. i just agreed with her. after i go to college it will be all good and ill get to control what i eat.
well anyways, we were in the car and she was like "here have an onion ring". of course i couldnt refuse because she knew i hadnt eaten. that one ended up being like five or six. then, while we were at her job she gave me a dollar and told me to go by something. i was going to just keep the dolllar and tell her i ate, but then her co-workers were in the lunch room and they were all like "come! come eat with us!" and i couldnt say no. that would be rued. so i ate a bag of cookies. 280 calories. the drink was 240. the onion rings. i dont want to know. and the five pieces of pizza i just shoveled into my mouth. im fucking grose.
i wish i could purge. id probably feel a lot better about this if i could.
thats always what i think.after i eat a lot. i feel like i should go throw it up. but i cant. its not as relieving as i ever think it's going to be. so i dont.and nothing ever comes up.
well, now that i've just failed myself... AGAIN... im going to go finish watching the golden globes, and go to sleep with a full stomach. again. what a fucking life.
jaime-lynn
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