national holidays

             gawd i hate them. i hate being home all day. it makes it soooo hard not to eat. i being the weak loser i am caved to eating. everything was going well, but then i said to myself " you cant ignore these hunger pains, they mean something, you have to eat before you starve yourself to death". i actually said that. not literally but still. it wasn't my stomach speaking for me, it was  my conscience  it was the weirdest thing. but i now officially hate it until it gets on the same page as me and ana. guess what it was that i succumbed to, toast with jelly! TOAST WITH JELLY! 115 calories. but then i had a pb+j and that was about 255 and then i had a cookie, which was 70. thats a total of 440 calories and its only 12:30. this is absolutely great :(.

Damn freakin toast

          ive decided that im going too start the ABC diet for the first time in my life next week. it doesnt sound that bad, but its probably gonna suck ass. im going to stick with it though. i totally forgot about my counselor on thursday and i have an interview for the school i want to go to. i don't want to look or feel weak for either of those. but im sad that i didnt stick to my 2-4-6-8 diet.
well, for now, i guess ill eat like a normal human being and just journal what i ate. then start dieting again on monday yay!               LoVe Jaime-Lynn <3