im sorry for my disappearance. i failed the abc diet. ive decided that im not going to do any major diets until march. at the beginning of march im going to start the abc diet again, and it will be a success. you see, i was reading an article by Self magazine and said that it takes 66 days to form a habit. and if you havent really read my earlier posts, my habit has been binging one day, then fasting the next. its been like this for months. so ive been stuck in this habit for a while now. so its obviously gonna be hard to go from that, to crazy restricting. im going to use the next 5 and a half weeks to get on the right track. i.e. setting daily calorie amounts and sticking to them.
so, i know 5 and a half weeks isnt exactly 66 days, but its good enough, by that point i think i should be good to start the diet without failing. im planning a sticking semi-high calorie throughout the next 5 weeks though. i really dont want to binge. i think the most ill have is 1,200 and the least, well 0. ill be fine as long as i dont binge. and ive found my new thinspiration! i found him on PT a few nights ago and hes just sooooo inspiring to me. and hott haha. im glad that i have him mow, he makes it so much easier to not binge.
oh, and also, i want to put up little tabs that have sections, such as thinspo and tips and the foods that i should be eating but never do because im a failure and just fuck everything up.ya know, things like that. unfortunately, unlike everyone else my age im NOT technologically savvy, but as soon as i figure that out, it's gonna be done.
im just saying this because i need to remind myself. JAIME-LYNN! you may be moving after this school year and if you do, do you want the people at your school now to remember you as that fat shy girl who doesnt talk to anyone who cuts all over her arm or, do you want to be remembered as that extremely pretty skinny girl who was amazingly strong? just saying. and when you go to your new school(if i got accepted which i probably wont because i sucked at my audition) do you want to go there and be "the fat girl" or "the beautiful mysterious skinny girl". once again. just saying. im glad that i just reconfirmed why i want to be thin. im 97 fucking pounds. im disgusting.
stay beautiful my friends, Jaime-Lynn <3
so, i know 5 and a half weeks isnt exactly 66 days, but its good enough, by that point i think i should be good to start the diet without failing. im planning a sticking semi-high calorie throughout the next 5 weeks though. i really dont want to binge. i think the most ill have is 1,200 and the least, well 0. ill be fine as long as i dont binge. and ive found my new thinspiration! i found him on PT a few nights ago and hes just sooooo inspiring to me. and hott haha. im glad that i have him mow, he makes it so much easier to not binge.
oh, and also, i want to put up little tabs that have sections, such as thinspo and tips and the foods that i should be eating but never do because im a failure and just fuck everything up.ya know, things like that. unfortunately, unlike everyone else my age im NOT technologically savvy, but as soon as i figure that out, it's gonna be done.
im just saying this because i need to remind myself. JAIME-LYNN! you may be moving after this school year and if you do, do you want the people at your school now to remember you as that fat shy girl who doesnt talk to anyone who cuts all over her arm or, do you want to be remembered as that extremely pretty skinny girl who was amazingly strong? just saying. and when you go to your new school(if i got accepted which i probably wont because i sucked at my audition) do you want to go there and be "the fat girl" or "the beautiful mysterious skinny girl". once again. just saying. im glad that i just reconfirmed why i want to be thin. im 97 fucking pounds. im disgusting.
stay beautiful my friends, Jaime-Lynn <3
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