oh dear, my friends

well, i know that no ones reading my blog at this point but i really have to vent. gawd im a terrible person. i was on this perfect diet that seemed like it was made for me and i only had 2 days left of it and guess what i did?!?!!?!? yup, i blew it. ive been really sick lately because i havent been eating a lot. well anyways, ive discovered that when i dont eat at all or just dont eat enough for a couple of days my body tends to reject food a a while afterwords. just in case you dont get what i mean ill explain... i get SOOOOOOO freaking puking sick that i feel like i am going to puke out my stomache. this actually has happened in school twice this week, but today it was horrible. it hurt so bad(by the way i dont mean i made myself do it, it just happened). im sorry for those of you that really didnt want to know that but i felt like explaining. oh, and to add on to this horrific day, my texting buddy hasnt texted me since i said that i binged horrifically today. i NEED her. i mean i dont like seriously need her, but she makes everything a lot easier to deal with. also, my mother bought french fries today!!!! FRENCH FRIES in a MEDIUM!!! i dont know how to explain to you how much i wanted to kill myself afetr i ate them, but i couldn.t refuse them or else she'd get suspicious, and that would be bad. well anyways, i hope your day has been better. ill post again soon, hopefully with better news.